These few days, I feel so eased writing in my blog, because I know that nobody would be looking. Anway, Church is always fun. I like Sunday! And I cancelled my tuition today because I have not done the composition as requested. I should no longer slack. These days are just meaningless, with computer, shopping and daydreaming keeping me occupied. I should be going to gym and reading the newspaper everyday.
Sermon today was especially thought-provoking. Sometimes I do wonder if I’m a hypocrite, that is only an outwardly Christian with no real conversion inwards. One thing really strike me is this. I know that I am really very excited about learning everything about the Bible, and is eager for more bible study. But what is the motivation behind? Am I really studying God’s words to know about him and this is solely just between me and God, and not trying to show off my wisdom. Or is it to gain such new knowledge about God so that I can show off, and show to other Christians that I’m a fervent believer? I admit that I sometimes do feel this way. And with such thinking, I am not a true Christian, but a hypocrite who is compelled by others. In this case, I followed a new kind of faith and is ruled by human’s opinion, and not God’s.
As children of God, we are a new creation with a new way of thinking that set us apart from the rest of the world. We are not restrained by worldly desires and materialism. We are free to be God’s new people. And as God’s new people. we followed God only, and are not compelled by others. In Galatians 6:11-16, we are reminded that we should not boast about our knwoldege about God or anything about God. Let us not fill the God-spaced vaccuum to feel good ourselves when we tried to lead our lives totally and deny Jesus’s divinity that we are saved through faith and eternity waits upon us. Let’s not be afraid of what others think but let us invite God into our lives to take over the Lordship of our lives. We are then ruled by God, not by human’s opinion. We are then set free to be new people of God.
This is sad. But Genesis and King I and II are good examples in history to show how human beings are vulnerable to committing sins and backsliding. But I know that as long as we repent our mistakes, God will forgive us. God is always with us no matter what, even if we choose to forsake him. So it’s alright for us to make mistakes as long as we repent. I have been backsliding and forsaking my daily bible study time.
Sorry Lord, I want repent. I do not know our relationships to be purely put for show. Lord, I don’t want to love you only to show other that I’m faithful, but I want to show you, Lord. Yet isn’t it contradicting that I wrote how many times that I love you in the web when the urge comes that it come so easily and go so easily? Lord, sustain me, restore me, lift me up again.
I was talking to someone who told me that the more you publicise about something, the more that thing that you publicise don’t mean much to you. How true it is. Yet I can’t help but express my faith openly, like I want to thank God personally. Yet I hope I don’t publicise my love for god that I don’t mean it. And let me forget about all those preaching in his blog if I don’t show it by behaviour by myself. I look to God to restore me…
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